Again, I am confronted by a person who seems to have zero capacity to self-observe or any interest in exploring their world view. There is a lot of conflict in this person’s life at present.
Over the last couple of years, financial stress seems to have activated primal survival issues. Fear-based living is dominating this person’s life and awareness.
It’s a sad and tragic situation. This human being is locked into a private hell where all the problems are outside, all the change needs to take place in others and in world circumstances. There isn’t one iota of contemplation around the possibility of personal responsibility, accountability, projection or distortion.
It makes me aware of how difficult the journey can be. As I see this person alienating and hurting others while maintain a stance of – I’m the nicest person I know – I marvel at how blind we can be.
Even when a person has the capacity for self-observation and a willingness to want to know the truth about themselves, it can be very challenging. We all have fundamental negative beliefs about ourselves that need to be brought into consciousness – into the light of day, into the possibility of transcendental awareness.
Today, I revealed my deepest, darkest secret to my teacher. I’ve had a student/teacher relationship with David for over 12 years. I didn’t think I would ever bring this situation up with anyone, but there I was marveling at me opening up my mouth to reveal this very painful place in me.
As you might assume, this place is full of excruciating shame and judgment.
Why, I asked myself, am I choosing to bring this up? Very simple answer – freedom. My soul longs to unwind, to be free of all contractions, inhibitions and limitations.
How is it possible to discover and engage these places that hold us hostage to our deepest fears – love of truth. The heart and soul love the truth. And loving the truth fuels the journey to freedom and intimacy.
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